The honeysuckle sneaks
up sublime and opiate
finding my foreignness more penetrable year after year.
Iím nowhere near as slick as I used to be.
Back when I was always just passing through
all sweetness would roll off me
as water fails on oilskin.
Now one drawling
and Iím tangled in its sticky perfume
tacked beneath the writhing wisteria
the canopy of sweet gum, the kudzu
conspiring to bind me to this place.
Daddy calls to say
Back home thereís a saying for May snow
I canít remember and a texture
my mind effaces with abstractions.
My memory jettisoned like horses
overboard and me, sinking fast
at last succumbing.
I donít think I can go